“17 These little troubles are getting us ready for an eternal glory that will make all our troubles seem like nothing. 18 Things that are seen don’t last forever, but things that are not seen are eternal. That’s why we keep our minds on the things that cannot be seen.”
I’ve always wondered what people look forward to when they wake up every morning, why they make the choices they make, why they say what they say, why they use certain words instead of others, and so on.
I think the answer is motivation.
What drives us would probably be the reason why we do a certain action, make a certain decision, chose something as compared to the other, use a certain word instead of another. In my work which deals primarily with people, I’ve learnt that human beings are such complex creatures, all unique to its own from the interplay of their genetics to the environment influences and interactions. It is truly amazing how everyone is so different and special, but that is also what scares me sometimes. Motivation is probably be the product of the interplay as well as our life experiences.
There’s so many things on earth that tempt us everyday to deviate from the right, to be selfish to meet our desires, to forego relationships to get our wants, to hurt others so that we can protect ourselves, so on. I don’t think that was what God intended for human beings when He first created us. We were made for happiness and love, but sin has destroyed the purity that we once had. It is a perverse world, and I want to be pained by the fact so that I will always have the consciousness and discernment to guide my motivations and the choices I make.
“Instead, set your sights on Heavenly things.” - These words came upon me when Heaven’s doors opened a couple of years back, which of late, have been ringing in my head.
I’m pretty sure there’s a reason for all these thoughts. I don’t care what people think of my Faith, I only care about how my Faith is manifested through my actions. It really takes so much to be different and set aside for His kingdom. I pray that all my motivations will be set on Heavenly things - that in all my actions, thoughts, words and relationships, I’ll be able to bring a spark - so that perhaps one day, it can be a little light that would bring Glory to God.
It’s been awhile in the spiritual wilderness. Time to go Home, Charisa.
I set out on a narrow way, many years ago
Hoping I would find true love along the broken road
But I got lost a time or two
Wiped my brow and kept pushing through
I couldn’t see how every sign pointed straight to you
Every long lost dream led me to where you are
Others who broke my heart, they were like northern stars
Pointing me on my way into your loving arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you
Yes He did
I think about the years I spent, just passing through
I’d like to have the time I lost, and give it back to you
But you just smile and take my hand
You’ve been there, you understand
It’s all part of a grander plan that is coming true
Every long lost dream led me to where you are
Others who broke my heart, they were like northern stars
Pointing me on my way into your loving arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you
But now I’m just rolling home into my lover’s arms
This much I know is true
After three weeks of tolling with the books, exams are finally over.
I’ve been rather consumed with managing my time, working and studying. Now that it’s all over, I’m looking back and I must say, this has been the most crazy semester so far. This time, with the boy in my life, it felt like I was doing four modules instead of three ;) The fourth module was all about learning to get in-sync with my inner-self, interpreting my emotions, feeling vulnerable, opening up, trusting and sharing my life.
I’m so, so grateful for C and all the things I don’t deserve. I’m so grateful that every time I count my blessings, tears start welling uncontrollably in my eyes. I’m gonna miss him real bad when he leaves in September.
Thank You, God, for teaching me to feel and live again.
My dad steamed us some crabs at 10.30pm.
Well, this entry is not about the awesome tasting crabs, but the gesture and my dad as a person. He is an amazing and selfless son, father and human being. He’s second to none, and I don’t think there’ll be another someone like him. I’m so grateful to have him as my dad, and I will always count him as one of my greatest blessing.
My pops’ the best! God bless his kind soul :)
Post Exams De-clutter Plans:
1. Clean my desk, put the semester books away!
2. Sort out the messy wardrobe and give clothes away
3. Transfer stuff into the new hard drive
4. Start on new craft projects
5. Catch up on Britain’s Got Talent 2012 highlights
6. Jog twice a week
7. Read 3 books
8. Skype the Aussie babies
9. Pay my sleep debt
10. Let the wanderlust run free
11. Pick up my bass guitar again
12. Wash my makeup brushes
Aburi Salmon Roll and Katsu Curry Rice @ Sushi Tei
Study session and late dinner with C <3
Belated Birthday Lunch w/ the colleagues #1
Thai food galore at Bangkok Jam :)
